REVOLVING DOORS

This week has been a little difficult at times but with it has come some surprises. It's always weird when people remove themselves from your life, for whatever reason, it leaves you feeling a great sense of loss. I'm still grieving the loss of someone special in my life and although the grieving process is a private affair it does spill over into everyday life so it's been hard to keep it hidden at times I suppose. As time goes on I'm accepting things more and more though and whilst I hate it when people speak bad of the person in question, in a way I suppose it's helping because it points out to me that there are always negative qualities to a person as well as positive, when you care about someone so much you don't see the negative side of anything.

What's just as confusing as losing someone is when people who fucked off years ago show up again. Someone I haven't heard from in quite a few years messaged me on Myspace recently. It kinda messes with my mind at times when people do this because I get too attatched to people in my life and when they leave, it hurts but you kinda get used to them not being around. When they show up again unannounced it brings back a flashflood of memories - some good, some bad. I guess if anything it'll be a distraction from losing my friendship with Joe. Not quite sure what to make of the reappearance just yet though, whilst it'll be a good distraction I have to bare in mind that there was a reason we lost contact before surely? Time will tell I guess.

Sometimes I wish friendships weren't so complicated. I know I complicate things more than most, but sometimes... Meh!